Midweek Motivation: One Day I Got Up

It was the summer of 2010. I was a wreck or should I say a wretch. I had just completed my first year of college, ecstatic about being home for the summer and that quickly changed. Going away to college was my first time being away from home for a long period of time. With tuition going up and realizing that the party life that I led in college wasn’t what my life was supposed to be about I found myself home came August while everyone I knew went back to school. Something deep down inside of me wouldn’t let me go back even though I know the financial part could be figured out I just couldn’t go back.

Ashamed, embarrassed, hurt and angry I sat in my room for almost two months applying to jobs with tears all over my laptop. No one would hire me and i do mean no one. Feeling like a disappointment I was stuck, let my mom tell it I was depressed. My life was nothing like I planned when I was 16. I didn’t get into my dream school, my mom was leaving the man who loved and treated me like his daughter for over 18 years, I wasn’t with the guy I was crazy about in high school and my younger brother felt like I had abandon him to go to college. Everything was changing! I was changing and that scared me.

Instead of praying and writing down my feelings like I was taught I would complain and cry everyday. At the time I felt like I was stripped of almost everything. I was changing. not wanting to do anything my peers did I became friend-less. I thought it was just me, my tears and complaints. It got to the point where I didn’t even want to leave the house, my mom began to worry because she thought all of this was about a guy when guys were the least of my worries. My life was changing, I was changing. I remember sitting up in my bed one night thinking to myself that joy comes in the morning. What I didn’t realize is that my morning would bring my joy when I was ready for it not just when the sun rises.

The next day I got up took a walk around my neighborhood and told myself that my life wouldn’t always be this way. That day I began to process my feelings and began to visualize a positive life for myself. Now almost five years later I can look back and Thank God for seeing me through that rough season of my life. I now know that everything I went through was preparing me for this season. Every complaint and attitude of dis-contentment  prepared me to be able to appreciate the life I have right now. Every feeling of being a disappointment allowed me to be able to tell other young girls that they aren’t disappointments no matter what goal they didn’t accomplish. Being in that season of constant tears and depression allowed me to be able to be empathic to strangers I see crying each day. That season of being broken allowed me to look deeply inside of myself, pick up the pieces of the life I once thought I wanted and proceed to the life God wanted for me.

Today I want to encourage you wherever you are to get up! Your joy is waiting on you to want your morning! Your peace is waiting on you! Dry those eyes, forgive that person, love yourself, respect yourself and get up! You don’t have to stay in that place of broken, bitter, loneliness you can get up!

Need more encouragement!? Check out my post ‘I am Enough”

Here https://peaceduringthejourney.wordpress.com/2015/02/10/truth-for-today-i-am-enough/

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Happy Monday!

Happy Monday!

Here is a picture of a beach in Brazil. Isn’t it beautiful? I decided to post this image instead of doing a motivation Monday. I think it’s important to take time out of your day and look at positive images whether they be pictures of dream vacations or your family. My plans are to travel the world as much as possible while I’m not married and don’t have kids. So every once in a while I’ll share a new vacation destination with you all.

If you have some time today check out a few of my most popular posts.

Every problem has a expiration date

https://peaceduringthejourney.wordpress.com/2014/08/15/every-problem-has-a-expiration-date/

If you ever had any doubt

https://peaceduringthejourney.wordpress.com/2014/09/26/truth-for-today-92614-if-you-ever-had-any-doubt/

Silent but present

https://peaceduringthejourney.wordpress.com/2014/10/30/truth-for-today-silent-but-present/

The chosen one

https://peaceduringthejourney.wordpress.com/2014/12/02/truth-for-today-the-chosen-one/

I am enough

https://peaceduringthejourney.wordpress.com/2015/02/10/truth-for-today-i-am-enough/

You’re Worth it

https://peaceduringthejourney.wordpress.com/2015/02/20/truth-for-today-youre-worth-it/

Have a safe and blessed Monday!

Truth for Today: You’re Worth It!

If I asked you to name all of the people and things you loved, how long would it take for you to name yourself? I remember someone asked the that same question, two minutes into my answer they stopped me and asked “When are you going to name yourself” I didn’t even realize that I hadn’t mentioned myself. that conversation made me think about how we can love and forgive everyone else EXCEPT ourselves. Seems crazy when you really think about it right!?

We can forgive and love the man who beat us, the woman who had a baby with another man, the parent that mistreated us and the friend that betrayed us but can’t seem to forgive ourselves for our wrong doings and love ourselves despite how others how others may treat us. No matter how others treat us we must love ourselves enough to forgive them. Just as un-forgiveness can cause all kinds of diseases I believe that love can help prevent them.

Take time out of your day to love on yourself! You’re worth it!

Truth for Today: Somewhere Along the Way

Somewhere along the way I lost my voice

By someone or something I was silenced

I was once an out spoken child and now I am a growing young woman

Somewhere along the way I grew up

I grew tired of the things my peers were doing

By something or someone I was silenced to the point where I couldn’t express day-to-day feelings

My emotions were running wild, gone with the wind

Somewhere along the way I lost my voice felt lost, betrayed and stressed

by someone or something I was silenced

Silence and tears became my best friends

Lost in my own cries I couldn’t hear God until I began to realize that this wasn’t life

Somewhere along the way I lost my voice but gained God

by his strips I was healed!

I was delivered! 

No longer silenced!

No longer stressed, lost or betrayed

because he loves me 

No someone or something could take my joy

Somewhere along the way I lost my voice, gained God, faith and happiness and for that I am thankful

Thankful that joy comes in the morning 

Thankful that my morning can come when I’m ready for it to be here

Thankful because I am blessed beyond measures because…

Somewhere along the way God protected, loved and cared for me

originally written 11/28/13

Tasty Tuesday! 2/17/15

Happy Tasty Tuesday! 

This week I made Taco’s with the old El Paso taco kit. Tortillas, mild taco sauce and seasoning mix comes in the kit So I only had to add my own meat and I use ground turkey. I cooked my ground turkey in skillet added some onions and green bell peppers to kick up the flavor. Next I stirred in the taco seasoning and let it cook on the ground turkey until the seasoning thickened in the skillet. I don’t like much on my tacos so I warmed up the tortillas, put a slice of swiss cheese on the bottom and finished with the ground turkey and some half and half salad mix since I didn’t have lettuce.

What are you all having for lunch or dinner on this Tasty Tuesday?

Today I was Appreciated

Happy Monday! 

I hope that all is well with everyone! Today I just wanted to share a picture of the card I received from one of my old clients this morning, it really made my day. I got up this morning moving slow dreading going into the office on this busy Monday. As I was on my way the old client sent me a text message asking if I was working today I responded yes and when I arrived there was a card with a beautiful message waiting for me. In my current line of work it is so easy to get burned out and feel unappreciated but the card I received let me know that I am appreciated and that the clients understand how much I do for them.

This card made all of the phones calls, late evenings and paperwork worth it. If there is someone you work with or even a loved one that goes over and beyond for you let them know that they are appreciated it will brighten their day.

Truth for Today: I AM ENOUGH

Happy Tuesday Everyone! 

I know that today is supposed to be “Tasty Tuesday” but I have to share something that’s been heavy on my heart with you all today…

Can I just be honest with you all? There were times when I beat myself up about every little thing, my mistakes, shortcomings and even some accomplishments. I know it may sound foolish but I often have to remind myself that I am enough. Sometimes I look back and think about all of the goals I was supposed to have accomplished by now and the life that I had all planned out and beat myself up over it. My life is nothing like I planned at 18, I didn’t get to go to my dream school, switched my major and  no longer excited about living my life long dream of being a news anchor, didn’t stay with the guy I was head over hills for and the list goes on and on. Since those things didn’t work out I just picked up the pieces and moved on the best way that I could.

I remember one night sitting in bed thinking about how different my life is from my peers and began to be ungrateful because nothing went as I planned. As I began to be bitter and discontent God spoke to me and said ” You’re mad that nothing worked according to your plan but everything that you thought you lost of didn’t get to experience was because that’s not what I have for you” I started to wipe the tears from my eyes and pull myself together. I had been beating myself up for years over a life that God didn’t have for me, over something so small as not getting into Hampton when I had the opportunity to study at other universities. I had thought for years that I wasn’t good enough for certain things because I didn’t come from the best neighborhood in Atlanta, GA or a family with money and higher education.

It wasn’t until that night that God spoke to me that I realized that I am good enough. God began to show me that it doesn’t matter if you’re not where you thought you were going to be, been the places you thought you would go or even be the person you thought you were going to be, just because he chose you; you are enough! Now when those feeling of inadequacy come up I am quick to remind myself that I AM ENOUGH! I no longer waste time throwing a pity party because I know that what God has for me is far more important than the plans I have for myself.

So I want to encourage you today to tell yourself as often as possible that you are enough! No matter what happened five, ten years ago or even what happened last week when God chose to give you life he made you good enough!

I hope that everyone has a safe and blessed day!

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